The bottom line is. . . I love my wife. I enjoy being with her, I enjoy talking to her, I enjoy doing things for her, and I enjoy making her happy. I want to be married to her forever, not just for this life, so we got married in the temple. We dated for several years. We broke-up twice, and I dated other women. But I would always rather be with her. I am comfortable being around her, and I can just be myself.
Plus, she really loves me. She would do anything for me, and enjoys supporting me and making me happy. I am gone a lot with work and church work, but she is always by my side, helping me to look good.
When I was dating in college, at BYU, I did it for the wrong reasons. I was trying to keep up an appearance, and trying to force myself to be attracted to women. It just didn't work, so I stopped dating. Later on I started dating again because I wanted to get to know the woman that I was dating, I wanted companionship, etc. When I started dating my wife, it was because I genuinely wanted to date her, not because I was trying to force the relationship or force an attraction to the opposite sex. I feel we have a good mariage. We have calm, harmonious relationship. We do not fight or get mad at each other. We do not always disagree, but what couple does? She likes it cool to sleep, and I like it warm. So be it.
In addition, I feel the blessing of the Lord for keeping his commandments. I received personal revelation that I was suppose to marry my wife. I believe that even though I'm attracted to men, I can enjoy a full life being married to my wife. I believe that is the ultimate goal for all of us to marry a member of the opposite sex and live the oath and covenant of the priesthood, and dwell with God in the Celestial Kingdom. Some may not have an opportunity in this life, but the Lord is just, and those people will have the opportunity in the next life. I have a strong testimony the gospel as is, and I support the Family Proclamation 100 percent!

I too am so grateful to be married. I can't imagine not having my wife and children. I am a lucky man.
ReplyDeleteI absolutely love hearing stories like this. My greatest fear is that I won't be able to find someone to marry. I hope I can find a great woman someday and have a great life (and tons of kids too!)
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing this. It gives me hope.
ReplyDeleteAre you for real? I hope so. Thanks for sharing your story.
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